making up for lost time

long update ahead. winter started kindergarten at my old elementary school pleasant green she is in all day kindergarten and loves it which is good because i started a job at the school so we get all the same days and times off. i help six different kids with different medical problems its nice the mornings are crazy busy but the afternoons are fairly easy i also help out the teachers by making copies and cut and stapling books and things. so now i just have to figure out how to work most of the day get home clean make dinner and get winter to do her homework and clean her room get everything ready for going back to school in the morning and having some time to see and talk to my husband i feel like there's not enough time in the afternoon and evening to get it all done but were working on it. were doing well, hoping to make some strides in paying off some bills then well have some breathing room. winter had a small surgery in July to fix her umbilical hernia so it set us back just a little bit, we've made a good amount of progress but it would be nice to go on a small vacation in the next year. other than that life is just ticking along we get older but everything feels rather the same as it did last year which isn't a bad thing.

I Remember

So i missed posting this on 9-11 by a couple hours but i remember what i was doing that day in 2001. i was at school 1st period seminary our teacher brother pond i believe got called out of the room and joseph ford's phone rang and he answered it and it was his mom Lynn and she told him that a plane had hit the world trade center building he told the whole class but honestly that name didn't mean a thing to me and probably most of the class too now its a name none of us will forget. so we finished class and i went to 3rd period ballroom dance the TV was on and our teacher whose name escapes me never did turn it off we would take turns learning our dance the boys and then the girls watched the TV but we all just stood there and watched as the second plane hit and the towers fell. it was all we could do we were all in shock no one knew how to process this unbelievable news, our brains refused to except the images our eyes were receiving. after this im not sure if it was lunch or computers but at lunch it was so quiet but so loud at the same time people couldn't stop talking but from school we were always able to see and hear airplanes coming and going and it was so still outside like the world was holding its breath and eerie like we were being watched and trying to act normal at the same time. in computers brad told me he may have to fly out there to New York and help because he was in something like the national guard but he didn't end up going because they found out he wasn't 18. we didn't do anything in computers just watched the TV and i cried it wasn't just in New York to people i didn't know it was affecting people i care about and then the reports started talking about the deaths and the pentagon and the other plane that took its terrorists down and crashed in a field. by time i got to 7th period debate i walked in and said "i don't know about anyone else but if i don't actually do some work and the TV doesn't get turned off im just going to walk home and my teacher immediately turned the TV off we did actual work and didn't talk about it at all im not quite sure why Flanagan did that but no one else said anything i just couldn't keep focusing on tragedy anymore it was horrible but what was i suppose to do about it i am thousands of miles away no planes but military were taking off i didn't have a job or money to send and i couldn't keep crying and i was just plain angry by that point angry at people who believe that killing hundreds of people including themselves promotes their beliefs and agendas. i think i had a phone at that time and my mom called to make sure i was alright i also had to make sure to pick up all of my siblings and keep us all together and safe. i still feel for all those affected by this insanity and hope that after 10 well 11 years now that they are doing good and are happy and i know that just because they are it doesn't mean they've forgotten it means they're not burdened with hatred and anger and sadness that will perpetuate insane degrees of violence. i hope that our world can figure this out and realize fighting fires with more fire only gets more fire and innocent people get burned. love to all ttyl, KAR.

New Ideas

So winter is four now and is very excited to go to school. we would send her to preschool but our school lost title one funding so preschool would be around 140 dollars a month which we cant do even if we wanted to which we dont so I decided to make her a binder so she could do school at home ive taught a number of classes and so has paul i also remember quite a bit of kindergarten so im fairly positive well get her up to grade level on most things and im fairly certain she will be reading before she goes to kindergarten next school year. im hoping to use winter binder as a trial run and then make some for family members so that they're getting all the help they need too. ive made a new list of goals and with paul i think we can get them accomplished and writing more is one of them and as this really is the most current journal/diary i have i think ill just try to keep this more updated than before. so in the next coming weeks im going to try to do a catch up of all the thing weve done since i last wrote such as our trip to disneyland for winters birthday as well as the progress of the preschool homeschool project which i may just start a blog just for that so i can keep everything organized and in one place. well its late and ive done some writing so i think thats a check in the done column. ttly kar

A year in review . . . kinda

So its been over a year since my last post and if i could remember everything id update accordingly but i cant so i just say this i stay at home with winter shes growing so quickly three going on thirty shes so smart and has such an imagination she plays well by herself and sometimes with others though she can be kinda bossy with friends. shes excited about pretty much everything she loves going places seeing people and new things. Weve found a new love for the library and winter loves that she has her own library card which doesnt have an age requirement like most people think ( paul said they did so i went up to the front desk and asked about ten minuets later winter had her very own library card which daddy keeps ahold of so it doesnt get lost). she only gets five books at a time cause mommy doesnt want to have to be in charge of more than that. we worked out a pretty good rewar system that makes it alot easier for all of us on days where shes just being a brat. she earns stickers three for behavior and three for cleaning up her toys so each day she has the chance of earning six stars every fifth star gets her a candy and every tenth star gets her a media reward like a movie or a video game we have a few kid ones. and since we usually just keep her halloween candy and dole it out we dont really spend any money on her rewards so thats great too. paul and i just had our fifth wedding annivercity (yes its spelled wrong but on purpose) we went out to dinner and got some christmas shopping done while winter had fun with kavins friend sofi she misses us since kavins in wisconsin it was fun. so now were gearing up for christmas and pauls birthday thats the 21st so sometimes he gets forgotten or people just smash his birthday in with christmas so i work hard at not doing that. anyway i have a headache so im going stop writting now thinks for reading ttly. love kar.

A day to remeber

Today was pretty okay but this evening was fairly awesome. I wanted to say that this was the first time winter had ever gone to the movies, but then I realized I'd be wrong. We went one summer with a friend to the free movie at the five star to see something. I don't remember what. Anyway she's now two and pretty much got to pick the movie. We went to see Tangled she did really good, next time were gonna be more on time so I can get her to the potty before the movie so I don't have to get up during the middle of it. She didnt have an accident so I think she's officially potty trained. We've only had a few accidents and they've all been at home, she does fantastic when were out and about though I don't get it but hey it works. After the movie we went to dinner at chili's it was good except for the part where winter made herself sick from eating to fast and threw up at the table luckily I could tell it was most likely gonna happen and was able to get a "bowl" in front of her or else I would have gotten it and usually I have the worst gag reflex and the sight and sound of someone puking is enough to make me puke I didn't have any problems with gagging or anything I guess the mom factor really kicked in it was totally a help my baby kinda deal. Though I still feel bad for the waitress who took it I hope she's a mom and can understand or at least is grateful it wasn't on the floor and they didn't need a mop and the wax paper caught it so all they really had to do was throw it away and nothing else got dirty cause the wax paper was going in the trash anyways. So all in all awesome night Tangled was quite fantastic and chili's 2 for 20 not bad just a very small selection. Well ttyl love always K.A.R.

Happy Birthday Uncle Mike

Today is your birthday and I wanted you to know how much I love you and how much you mean to me. I hate that you don't feel well and that the chemo makes you feel even worse. I wish you lived closer so I could come visit more and just be near you. Your one of my most favorite people and I miss you lots and lots. I love you so much and you inspire me so much, you've inspired me my whole life and ill never be able to repay you that but I can write this so you can read it and know how much you will always mean to me. Hope your birthday is full of happiness and love and that you get to have many more birthdays with us. Lots of big bear hugs and sweet kisses today and everyday from me to you. -Karli ;)

What's in a title

I stopped nannying a while ago. I couldn't keep doind it anymore they really need a college girl with a car and no life they had me coming in almost everyday my last week was a fourty hour week which I still haven't been paid for and most likely never will it really suck when family throws you under the bus like that. Anyway I'm over it. I'm really excited to be home with winter and not have to worry about going all over the place with her and two more kids. I really want to learn to be crafty: sewing, canning, knitting, and all those thing pioneers did daily that no one really ever does now, or at least I don't I'm lucky if I sew up holes in pillows or pants. Although I'm mostly done with a quilt top my visiting teachers and paul have been helping me with hopefully well have it done next week. Right now were working on winters halloween costume she's gonna be a tonberry its a creature from the video game final fantasy its like a turtle without a shell that wears a jedi robe it carries a lantern and a kitchen knife and it is a monster that you just want to run away from it has tons of hit points and will kill half your party with one hit but she looks so cute in her costume. She loves the robe and spins and giggles and runs around changing what she is in it a witch a jedi a tonberry anything she can think of its hilarious. She's potty training very well and is excited to start preschool when she turns three so she working hard and be fully potty trained with no accidents by march she only has minor accidents and its only every once and a while not everyday. She loves to sing and she very good at shapes she getting better at letters and numbers she know the order of the letters but if they're laid out in front of her she can't pick them out she know the order of her number to 13 after that it goes wonky but she's learning and loves books she gets everyone she can to read her stories the same ones over and over again. I love my girl and hope she's able to do all she wants to. Love to all ttyl. Kar