life is way overwhelming

okay so i as of now formally quit. Quit what: everything! Life! it all sucks. . . .
Okay i think its out of my system now. but really im tired. paul and i both started new jobs i have two he has one we still have class and have to make room for some what of a social life we see nate like once a week if were lucky and tim about the same i hardly ever even get to see paul and to save money and cause my parents okayed it paul moved into our house for the next couple of months and i still hardly ever see him its impossible to plan a wedding if you never see each other today we were both suppose to have the morning off but he got called into work he doesnt get off until 4 and i have to be at work at 2:30 and wont get home until 6 i really hate this. we both got sick, still worked, and moved all his crap out of his apartment down three flights of stairs just the two of us. which did not help with the being sick and tired to actaully see each other we have to stay up til 12 or 1 in the morning but then we have to be at work by 7:30 in the morning which just makes you more tired i need a vacation but since we just started these jobs its nice to work there for a few months before taking a vacation besides we have to save that time off for a honeymoon which i dont even know if we can do cause we still have to find a place to live and we havent recived checks yet cause we havent worked there long enough(they make you wait an entire month). so i feel like crap most of the time and i just think later when we are married factoring in kids is going to just make it all harder and thats not really a very comforting thought. anyway whom ever still reads this if youd email me your addrress that would really help me to finish my invitation list for the wedding they have to be sent out in november to people who live here and october to people who live out of state. i still love you all and i dont really quit i just want to. hugs and kisses, Kar.