A day in the life of me. is very boring i have nothing to look forward to. i go to school on tuesdays and thursdays which is alright but tends to get repeative then nate and i started a movie night on wednesdays its the third week and it to is becoming routine and then saturday we usually end up doing something to. I think i need a change of scenery like a road trip or something. not to rude or anything cause nates my best friend i need to talk to someone else for a change but i dont know who why or about what. after breaking up with my boyfriend of two years one month and eleven days and being so close to nate everyong expected us to date he expesically but i cant i dont love him in a romantical way and he doesnt love me that way either. which i must say is a relief so we were able to just hang out plus our friendship couldnt hold a relationship as well things would change which neither of us want cause were the only other person we really see. so we were sitting on the couch talking after my sisters birthday party everyone else had gone to bed (i love that my parents trust me finally) and i was telling that even thought i couldnt date him the cuddling (which sounds funny its really just me leaning my head on him) was nice and he said yeah were like friends with benifits. that is the last thing i ever want to hear and i couldnt believe he said that. my reaction was if you ever say that again i'll hurt you he said if i ever say that again give me the knife i'll do it myself. i wouldnt have used a knife he doesnt need to be maimed he just would need to be hit HARD. so far things are ok with my now ex boyfrind and my best friend but i still need and want a change of scenery. oh well you deal with what your dealt.
P.S. I'll try music and if that doesn't work then i dont know what to do but run away.
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Speaking as the ex-boyfriend, I would recommend that running away is not the best option available to you. Everything will look better once you feel better. (Even if it isn't really.)
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